A bit about me and update on 2020 “resolutions”

I haven’t said jack about my Kinda, Sorta New Year’s Resolutions 2020 since one update in March. I suppose I’ve had other things on my mind.πŸ˜• But I did not just give up. That was not an option. The world is not ending and I’m not sick. That said I didn’t/don’t feel that it has to be “business as usual.” I can be tough on myself but I am not out of my head.😁

My work life, which is part time, has been unaffected by the pandemic. I don’t have a lot of people contact and when I do have any, distancing is possible. I mention this to note that I was and have been grateful to be working and to say it came first over the course of the last 5+ months.

While work has been the same, several other things have not been, obviously. I’ve stayed away from people, out of stores almost entirely, and off public transportation.

Reading books became difficult for the early months of the pandemic; it was too hard to concentrate. I’m very, very happy to say my public library is in the earliest stage of reopening and it’s possible to request & pick up materials (outside). I feel less distracted now and am enjoying books again. I’ve read 22 of a planned 30 for the year. I’m currently listening to Three Women by Lisa Taddeo, which got a lot of buzz last year.

My “good deeds” are going okay too. The rule is it has to be something where I go a bit out of my way (more so than normal, every day things I do) and it has to be with no expectation of reward of any kind. I’ve done 16 of a planned 20. I don’t know what a “good deed” will be in advance; I just look for opportunities.

The Elementary School has lovely flower gardens. They were initially planted by volunteers/parents (I’m neither) and they’d typically hold “work parties” to maintain them. At the end of February, pre-pandemic, I noticed the beds were neglected, full of leaves & last year’s dead perennials. I knew that there’d likely be a cleanup date scheduled when it got warmer, but since I usually work best alone, I started working on them. Well, you know what happened in pretty short order. School got closed and nobody touched those beds. So I did. I keep ’em clean and haul away the debris. School is not re-opening for fall so I expect I have an ongoing good-deed-doing project this year. They’re so nice; it’d be a shame to let them totally go.

The best one with rose bushes, black-eyed susans, coneflowers, sedum & other stuff😊

Two other beds. Both have flowers and one has a Crepe Myrtle & I don’t know what the other tree is

Yoga has fallen off. I am active outdoors in seasonal weather (and unseasonal to a lesser degree) and I’ve realized that yoga is a better winter activity for me at least now. I do feel like I lose momentum by not doing it year round but I just have to accept that. This means my yoga goals will not happen as they were ambitious, pre-pandemic, and supposed to be spread over the calendar year.

I have gotten rid of (recycled, given away, etc) over 90 things. I love it! I want less things/better things. It’s kinda funny to me; in the last several years I’ve focused on making my home an attractive, useful, clutter-free place. And now, during the pandemic, I’ve gotten to live in it. It’s almost as if I’ve been preparing for this time. In retrospect anyway.

This is not mine & it doesn’t count as a “good deed” because I think of it as my contribution for the use of it, but I’ve been weeding this bed & keeping the immediate grass around it cut. I thought it was such a lovely, generous thing for someone to contribute. I’m mad for Basil especially & really don’t get enough sun for it so I’ve been delighted to have access.

I planned to cut back on movie-watching (more books, less movies) in 2020 BUT since I don’t have cable & don’t watch movies on my tablet AND I couldn’t get DVDs from the library, I was FORCED to cut back! That’s right, I didn’t see any of the Tiger King stuff – not sure I want to – or that Love is Blind (I think that’s the name) pod dating show either. Instead, I discovered re-runs of Shipping Wars on regular TV. Fascinating show. The shippers are SO insulting toward one another but SO funny. I could relate! Now however, I am so happy to again have access to library DVDS. They are my reward.

There’s something else I want to say. For most of the time I’ve had this blog, I’ve also had a problem in my life. No one is sick or dying but the problem is one I have no control over. The people who should have helped didn’t. In my 2020 Resolutions post I wrote about relief from this problem. That relief, which gave me back a kick in my step, has continued. I have wanted to tell you this: for me personally, everything that has happened this year has been a cakewalk when contrasted against this problem. I tell you that so you’ll have an idea of the magnitude the problem had for me. I am so, so, so grateful to not have had this problem on my plate in this year. I don’t like to think of what it might have like to have dealt with both. This problem may easily return, I have no certainty but AT LEAST it was not on my plate this year. I breath easier.

Let’s lighten the mood. I had slacked on pushups figuring I was doing enough other exercise. I was wrong.😐 Like many, I put on a few pandemic pounds. You wouldn’t know it but I do. Pushups strengthen the upper body AND tone the abdomen. I’ve started doing 10 every day again.

That’s right, I’m BAD

This post would not be finished if I didn’ talk about the social upheaval. If I was a younger woman and there wasn’t a pandemic I think I’d almost certainly have gone to a Black Lives Matter march or anti police brutality demonstration. These are terrifically important times and I had tugs of feeling that history was passing me by as I stayed home safe in my community. But there’s only so much you can do and you have to prioritize. I’m not young & I don’t like crowds. So, like many, I watch the TV, I take in the latest horrifying event, whatever it is. I still fear for this country but that so many do seem to want healthy change, gives me hope.

19 thoughts on “A bit about me and update on 2020 “resolutions”

  1. Ron Walker

    You didn’t miss anything with the Tiger stuff. The most insane, scripted reality TV this decade. I watched two episodes just to see what all the hoopla was about. Nothing.

    It’s good that you are reading. I used to love to read, but as the years went by, my neck just won’t let me. Michelle reads ALL the time. I have a server set up for her e-books. Over the years she has amassed thousands. She loves series.

    Your shcool and park flowers are nice. I had thought about visiting the old park where I was a Ranger once. but a 13 year old was shot and killed by a 17 year old in broad daylight. So, not wanting to have to hold my camera with one hand, and my gun in the other, I opted to just go to the local park.

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    1. Colette Post author

      It can feel like no place is safe & I try to fight that but I’m not always successful. I don’t expect Tiger King is for me either but yes, the hoopla. Have you considered books on tape? I discovered wonderful little versions in the public library called Playaway.

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  2. Becky Ross Michael

    I’m happy to read that your previous large problem remains in the past; and I hope it stays there! I think it’s wonderful the way you’ve been taking care of the school flower beds! I know the work is enjoyable, but it can be hard work, too!

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    1. Colette Post author

      Do you have any twinges of curiosity about this Tiger King business? It can be weird to be so out of the loop, like say, never having heard of The Macarena.πŸ˜€

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  3. Ally Bean

    I’m glad that you’re having a good year in spite of what is going on out there. In many ways it all comes down to perspective as you mention with your acknowledgement that your problem is past. I don’t watch much TV, movies or news, so I’m out of it about many things all the time. This year it’s a good place to be, missing all the hate and confusion that seems to be the motif of 2020.

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    1. Colette Post author

      I feel compelled to keep up with the news more this year but this president has also caused me to have more heightened awareness while he’s been in office. I need to make sense of things this year, something I remember we talked about early in the pandemic ( i.e. What does it all mean?) and the more that’s happened, the more I’ve felt that way. Why now? Why this year? What next? I guess I feel mindful.

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      1. Ally Bean

        I wonder about the why of it, too. I read the news, but cannot bring myself to watch the news, especially when tRump is the focus. As for what’s next… who’s to say? These are ridiculous times.

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  4. Pistachios

    It’s a good mentality to have, looking out for opportunities to do good deeds. Do you think it’s had flow-on effects for your mood or outlook on the world? I think it’s meant to foster positivity and a sense of empowerment (?)

    I think it’s fair that you didn’t attend the protest marches. There are other ways to support a cause without leaving the comfort of one’s home πŸ™‚

    I must admit, my daily push-ups have become every-few-days-push-ups, and I’m starting to worry that my strength is slipping. Must get back into it! Thanks for the inspiration!

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    1. Colette Post author

      What?! Slacking?😊 You are MY inspiration. I have not forgotten that pull-up business (which has totally dropped off my agenda this year😐). I figure the pushups are the least I can do. I need to minimally maintain.

      The good-deed-doing is multi-faceted, yes. It gets me out of my head & focusing on my troubles/concerns, it’s a way of contributing – to people or the community – on my terms (since I’m not a big “joiner”), and I think it’s a positive use of my time. I know I really like when other people do nice things just to do them, stepping outside their own little bubble. I don’t know if my attitude is any better, now that you ask.

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